Carrie's Recovery Journey

“I’ve been to about 9 treatment centers and served more jail time than I'd ever like to admit.”

Today means more to me than anyone will ever understand. I’m so grateful to be living this honest life today. It is one thing no one can ever take from me. 3 years ago today I chose to better my life. I took every single suggestion with an open mind and really was just willing to do whatever it would take to get my life back. I lived in active addiction for twelve years. I’ve been to about 9 treatment centers and served more jail time than I'd ever like to admit. I’d give one addiction up for another, one right after the other.

It’s so scary to think this all started for me as something to do for fun. It was a social thing mostly all my friends were doing it. Only until for me it became so much more than that. I created a demon sunk so far inside myself I had no idea what I was messing with. I NEEDED IT, and it came down to whatever it took to get it, and at whatever cost. I would have sold my soul if I could have.

Until 3 years ago I sat myself down at my bedside in jail and I prayed. I prayed for spiritual guidance, strength, hope, courage, emotional stability, clarity and most importantly protection from relapse and temptation. I promised myself I would do whatever it would take to keep myself sober, with GOD as my mentor. I got into a long-term treatment center and after that went straight to a halfway house. I made connections I have a sponsor, she knows she’s my sponsor. I stay involved. My mental health has become number one always, today I am able to be a mother, a daughter a sister. I couldn’t be happier with my life today. As always life comes up and it’s when you really have to decide what is more important.

Today i choose me.

-Carrie Fuedale